And so this is the second half is continued improvement and mindfulness in my thought process/emotional health.
Sometimes my inner dialogue is wretched. Wretched. Horrible things. About myself. About others. About "how unfair the world is."
I would like to change, if not quiet such rhetoric.
To me, this is most meaningful is two
2. Being at Peace
1. I can be and present very
confidant at times. However I second guess myself constantly, especially
professionally. And now as I am trying to branch out and meet new people. As a
CBT therapist I believe that we act upon what we believe, including about
ourselves. I need to slow down my thought process and I need to buy into my own competence and "likability". What messages am I telling myself? And what
messages/example am I setting for the next generation?
2. 'The more I
come to peace with myself, the less I engage in war with others". I feel like I
have come so far in this area. I come from a history of drama and baggage. And
as I continue to let that go I have a better quality of life. I am less
defensive. I hear people better. I engage in conflict less. I cannot change
others or history, but I can change my self and my perception of such things. It is a constant struggle and project.
There are specific projects I am mindfully working on in this. Which I plan to expand on at later times.