Up until now, my little guy has had no such thing. We never used pacifiers. He has no Linus-esque blanket he carried everywhere. ( not like baby me who had my gee-gee. Aka ratty torn blanket I could not part with. ) and even with all of the stuffed animals that surround him in his crib now. Nothing clicked for him
Paranoid momma has begun to wonder if this is problematic and will forever mar his personal relationships. Normal momma looks at him and can see he is perfectly ok.
This was the case until the other day, when I was digging through some boxes in the basement, looking for some particular pieces of nostalgia. I found one box of some of my moms old items. Some that stayed with her in her final year in long term care. There were too stuffed animals, dogs, at least one of which I am certain I bought her.
One still has her name tagged to it. So it would not get misplaced, as items tend to do in nursing facilities.
I took them out and threw them in the wash. Seeing as they have been basement ridden for at least 4 years.
These guys were then handed to my son. And immediately he was smitten.
He takes at least one to grocery stores. The babysitter. Carries all over the house. And goes to bed with all of the other animals.
To me this is so special. I have always struggled with not feeling a connection or any signs or anything from/with my mom since she passed. Like so many people seem to see or have.
In a way I feel that this is something. As clear as day. A wink. A nod. A reminder she is always with me.
A connection
Attachment
It's still there.
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